Celibacy? Drum roll please...........

What's going on with the celibacy thing?....drum roll please.......it has come to an end...or had come to an end. I am back in the same place although not by choice.

I made it to 14 months...yep and you all know I was holding out for someone wonderful. Did that happen? It did momentarily. He was everything I needed at the time. Unfortunately, things didn't work out...but we won't dwell on the negative, instead let me tell you that the sex was off the hook. It's funny you sometimes forget what you are missing out on when you've gone so long without something...I was so missing out. But, it was different this time...it wasn't some random mean nothing guy...it was someone who captured my mind first and then my heart.

I have to tell you though that the first time was hard...I was drinking a little and we were in the hot tub. I knew I wanted to do it...but I had placed such a big expectation on myself to not have sex that when I did...I felt horrible. The sex part was great but the emotions that went along with it were fucking insane. I felt guilty...I felt like I had let myself down...I even cried right there in the hot tub. It was crazy...I wanted it...I cared about this person but it really messed with me for a few minutes. I got over it quickly needless to say.

I am no longer on a quest for celibacy...but I have to tell you that I am going to continue to hold out for that special someone. I deserve it...although I have to tell you tonight I could really go for some forceful, hard, hot sex....yes right about now that sounds like exactly what the doctor ordered. Call me Dr. D.

New site...new updates...new features!

My new site went up this week! It is so amazing...I am in love! Yes I can fall in love with my own site...it was a long time coming. I loved the old one so much that I wasn't sure I would ever be able to change it. But, my webmistress really out did herself. Plus, I had some new features I was adding so it was definitely time.

One of the new exciting features on my site is the Erotic Bed Time Stories by me. :) I bought my own little camera and I read my favorite stories to you! This section of my site will update weekly to start out with...so that means 3 updates a week! One erotic story...one picture set and also a regular video. My first story is about some hot lesbian action! I have a fascination with lesbian porn...this new feature is going to help my members learn alot more about me.

Also, starting very soon...my webcam shows will be playing in the website itself. No more longing on to yahoo to see me...you will be able to open my site and watch right there. We are still working out the kinks on this one...so I am thinking should be working within 2 weeks.

So, make sure you come see the new design! It's beautiful and it has 2 new videos for you to enjoy! Thanks for your support! XoxoX

I'm not so Little Red Riding Hood!

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Guess who went to the Red Rooster!?

What is the Red Rooster?

The Red Rooster is Las Vegas's oldest and most well known Swing Party for couples and singles. You can check more about the club at their website www.vegasredrooster.com

On the first Saturday I was in Vegas which was 2 days before I celebrated my one year of celibacy...I thought why not make this last couple days as hard as possible...hahahaha so I went with a big group of people to the Rooster. I have never been to a swing club before but, I thought if for no other reason this could make for some good writing. If you have not had the opportunity to go to a club like this...well you should try it. I had a wonderful time. The coolest thing about the club is it's just like going to a regular club...there's a dj/entertainer who looks like Wayne Newton...a dance floor...tables...a little bar area(which you bring your own bottle of liquor and they mix your drinks for you)...there were snacks...a pool and hot tub...and lastly the thing that made it a little different than most clubs there were bedrooms with a 20 minute time limit. I mean who hasn't been out to a club and wished you didn't have to wait until you get home to get your hands on your significant other or someone you just met but both of you are there for the same reason.

It started like any other club night...more people I knew came...we all sat and shot the shit...and then one of the girls said, "Let me give you a tour" at first I was like no...I would have been happy just staying at the table for the whole night. But, after a few pleas I said what the hell...and off we went. First she took me to a room off the sitting area...it had a pool table and there were people hanging out in there in their lingerie. The dress code is pretty laid back...women can be naked and men have to cover their junk. Yes naked ladies! Good stuff! Then we got to the locker area...u can use the lockers when u go swimming...and right on the other side of the lockers is the first group of rooms with the "20 minute time limit" posted on the door. How fun would that be!?

Pool area

Next she showed me the pool area and to my surprise there was a woman in her 50's standing against the wall with one of her tits out of her shirt...I wasn't sure what that was all about but it was funny...I smiled and said hello...and giggled uncontrollably inside. Maybe that was a way to get let people know she had something she was willing to share. Whatever it was I can tell you I am 99% sure homegirl got lucky that night. And last but certainly not least was the Orgy Room! Tell me this place doesn't look like a fuckin' good time! It was empty when I took the tour...but I knew I would be back. I am one voyeuristic chick!Orgy Room

So, as the night went on and more alcoholic beverages were consumed...I got dragged into a 20 minute room...now I was going as a security blanket for a friend...so in this little room there were 3 men and 3 women...I was not participating so we will say 2 women. I watched some of the hottest sex I had ever seen...the actual couple in the room...would switch off between the husband and then the stud that his wife had picked...each would fuck her in different positions...I was watching my own personal porno (although truth be told if it was my porno I would have been watching 5 women...but alas this was good stuff). And then I sort of joined in...I kissed my girlfriend while she was getting railed by the hunk of a man she has choosen. Yep...that was the extent of my swinging...kissing girls...which I love to do. It's so sensual to have a woman's lips on yours. Soft wet and sometimes urgent kisses. It was time for me to join the party again...so back to the sitting area I went. The place was getting pretty crowded...and I ran into a good looking couple who asked if I would like to join them...I told them I would be interested in watching and maybe kissing the girl but had no interest in the dude. So, they said they would come find me when it was their turn for a room...by now the wait was up to 30 minutes or so. In the meantime I found myself in a room with a table I can only describe as a pussy eating table. I was in there with 2 girls and a guy...had my prayers been answered was I gonna get to see my own personal porno? A little hot lesbian action...well sadly the answer is no...but I really wanted to try out that table...I may have been persuaded but there was a knock at the door and the couple that I had agreed to watch was ready for me...so I slipped out the of the room and moved my way into the other room. I joined the couple and she was bent over the dresser and he was slowly...very slowly hitting it from behind. Now I only wish you guys could see me imitate the way he was fucking her...because I did a very good rendition of it. I was standing across the room watching...drinking my drink...I wanted to tell him to speed it up...it was killing me. I didn't know I was going to watch him make sweet love to his girlfriend...I certainly didn't sign up for that. I excused myself to use the bathroom and let them know if I didn't make it back...just to keep doing their thing. Guess who never made it back? Yep that would be yours truly.

So, I am glad i don't live in Vegas because I would definitely have a new hang out. I would be a Rooster regular...I didn't get laid but I wasn't looking to...actually come to think about it...someone asked me if I would like to fuck. I politely declined...after all my one year anniversary was 2 days away. Being at a swing club really made me question what I am looking for in a relationship...I never thought that I would even want to be in the life style...but I have had the honor of knowing some really amazing loving couples who do it. I think their relationships seem more solid than some of my non-swinging friends. It's something else to think about on my search for my other half.

What is it about a good spanking?

So, I decided after looking over my new update that I should talk about my intense like for a good spanking. I don't mean a silly little slap on the ass...I mean...the bring tears to my eyes type of spanking. I am not really sure if it turns me on...I actually don't think it's that at all(I'll get into this more later in the blog) . I love my birthday because at this point I am guaranteed at least 35 spankings...I like a good solid hand and also like to be spanked with a paddle. I want it to sting! I like public spankings...the more the merrier. Spankings from girls are ok...but there is nothing like a man behind me...focused on my huge ass...giving it to me hard enough to make my knees buckle. That does not happen often(the knee buckling thing). You would be surprised just how strong of a hit this ass can take. I had a friend once...oh the pain he could inflict on this ass.

Why I don't think it turns me on...I was at a little Sybian party once...and I am quite a modest girl...I am the girl on the Sybian with her panties on...I don't enjoy penetration on this machine...I just like the clit stimulator. I just like to grind on it, it's a guaranteed orgasm or two or three...anyway back to the spanking thing. There was a chick there who was a domme and she had a crop and she was whooping my ass while I rode the machine. She hit hard...real hard...and I could not get off...actually I wasn't enjoying the Sybian at all. And let me tell you how much I love this machine...it is such a wonderful machine...talk about an incredibly intense orgasm...mmmmmmmmmm ok...sorry I was lost in my own little fantasy for a minute. Anyway...the spanking thing totally turned me off...maybe it was it because it was a chick...who really knows...I guess I will have to try it again. I am pretty sure I would like a nice spank from a dude who was hitting it from behind.

The more I am thinking about a good spanking the more I could use one. My birthday is damn near a year away...maybe I could make a certain day of each month National Spanking Day for that month...then I would at least get it good once a month. Yes I know...the 2nd Saturday of each month could be Spank Dawn Saturday....which means...this Saturday when I'm in Vegas...it will be time. But, then I guess I would need to find some volunteers who would be willing to open up a can of whoop ass on my ass. A girl can dream right...

More Arizona Sunshine!

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So shiny and so slippery!

My newest video update is a hot and sexy one! Me and baby oil...lots of baby oil. Watch as I rub it all over my big boobs and big belly...it's felt good to be covered in baby oil...maybe next time you could help me rub it all over! Come see more @ www.msdawnp.com

Red and black and oh so sexy!

This set was alot of fun...I purchased this little outfit from the internet and was surprised how little it covered when I put it on. All the better I say! I felt so sexy in this little skirt and top...it showcases my boobies and booty so well! I am sorry I couldn't write more...just wanted to drop in real quick...back to grandmother's house I go!

Squeezed into a tini nightie

Finding cute little outfits that fit my boobs isn't the easiest task. Most of the time...I see something I think is cute but it only has a D cup for the top...well this new update is one of those many outfits I often come across. And since I really only have to wear it for 15 minutes...I figure what the hell.

I loved the outfit...pretty blue...sexy little g-string with a bow. I think that's about the only part of my panties you can see. My ass swallows them. There are alot of different poses with this set. Come see more HERE

New things going on at MsDawnP.com

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My cups runneth over!

Ahhhh but that is the story of my life...I wish there was a bra or a corset that could contain these boobs. I could probably get a corset made...hmmm I will have to look into that. My newest update actually concentrates alot on my big delicious booty and of course my breats...so there is something for everyone!

Also I have two new videos from last week up...one I was outside in only a thong and a beautiful piece of sheer blue material, blowing in the wind...the other well I will post a link to a dear friend's blog, he explains it better than I ever could! Click here for blog

Also, I have decided to make my webcam shows every Monday night @ 9pm PST. And I will intermittedly being doing day shows when time allows...hope everyone is having a good week! Happy Hump Day! (Oh my how this mission of no sex is killing me!)

Burnt Boobies

So, I have lived in AZ for more than 20 years...and I know how harsh the sun is...but this weekend...it was especially harsh. I went swimming this weekend...but I only stayed in the pool for about 30 minutes...I could see my skin turning pink so I jumped out of the pool and went in just chilled in the shade for the remainder of the afternoon.
When I got home...I noticed that I was going more from pink to red...and man it was really starting to hurt...man I can't believe I did this to myself.
So, the rest of the weekend I have spent putting vinegar on my poor boobies to take the sting away...and although it helps a bit, it really doesn't help that much. I have been rubbing them down with aloe and lotion...hoping to keep them nice and soft...I will not get burnt again for a long time...lesson learned!

Being naked outside...I love it!

My newest update was taken outside in the beautiful AZ desert. I love being outside naked...although I am still very nervous that I am going to be caught. I guess that's the fun in it. I think it could have been more fun if I had someone special there with me...the skirt of that dress was so big I could probably hide someone under there...how hot would that be...lounging on the rock...enjoying the sun...and no one would know you were under my skirt...making me feel extraordinary....mmmm...I need you to meet me in the desert.

On a mission

So, it's been 10 months for me with no sex. It sucked for a long time...because as much as masturbation does the trick for the most part...there is still nothing like a nice warm body pressed against mine, not to mention a nice hard dick. It been a tough 10 months...well I would say until about a month ago. I feel like because I have gone this long that I am on a mission.
The main reason I have not had sex is because I am looking for something more meaningful than just a roll in the hay. Don't get me wrong if a guy that really turned me on came around...I might just fuck him...no strings. (Buck, if you are reading this...that's for you) But, I've done the meaningless thing before and I never feel that great when it's over. So, I have decided I am going to see just how long I can abstain.
That is my mission...no sex...how long can I go? Does that mean no oral? no fingers? no anal? Yes...yes it does. Kissing is not out of the question...cause when Ms. Dawn is drinking Ms. Dawn is kissing...lol. So, let the masturbating commence...since that's all I'm gettin'...I better be gettin' it on the daily. I'm a woman in her prime and I just gave up the one thing I could really use to put a smile on my face. DICK!

Webcam shows!

I am up and running with a new computer and my own high speed internet access! I will be doing members only webcam shows weekly. My last web cam show...last Thursday was alot of fun! I will be webcamming this week on Thursday night May 15th @ 10pm PST and then again on Friday the 16th @ noon PST. I am going to try and keep up with my webcamming...it got thrown off because of a job I recently had. And although I am looking for another job web camming is going to be a priority. In addition to webcam shows my site has alot of great content! There's 1000's of pictures and a ton of videos! I update once a week with a picture set and also a video. I love ideas that you give me. I do my best to make them happen. I have a new section coming to my site...I should have that up by months end. I am very excited for this and I think you will be too! Come join my site and get to check out my huge boobs and butt on cam!

Updates in the last few weeks!

I thought I would share some of my updates here...I haven't been really putting them out there like I had in the past. Finding time lately has been one of my problems...being a working woman certainly has it's advantages and disadvantages.



The big bouncing ball...I never thought I would do it...but it was so much fun! I think I may even buy a ball for myself. It seemed good for exercise as well as just having fun. How can u not smile while bouncing up and down...and you would not believe the way everything jiggled...it was awesome...if you like to see me jiggle this is definitely the video for you!



The next set is with the sexiest shoes I now own. I got these shoes as a gift from one of my friends/members. I love them...it was so sweet of him to get them for me. I think they really compliment my legs. This is one sexy set you must come check it out!



When I shot this next set in Palm Springs it was kind of a fluke. I didn't have any intention shooting in this tube top...I put it on while I did my hair and make up and Andy, my photographer said, "Why don't we shoot that?" So we did! And it turned out great...the top/dress really accentuates the roundness of my breasts, belly and butt!

It's Saturday afternoon and I am being a little lazy today. I started out with a bang...and cleaned the house...but alas I am not motivated to do anything else...so here I am...doing my best to make good on my promise.

I wanted to fill you in on my Saturday night last week...it was Desiree Devine's birthday...what a great time! Here are a couple pictures of me right after I got ready...I was still in the hotel.



I love getting all dressed up and sparkly! Well we went to the club. And it was a fabulous time...my poison of choice is Crown Royal. Bet you would have never pinned me as a whiskey girl...but what can I say. My tastes have improved with age. I did a little dancing on the pole...here are a few pics of that...I know I look slightly ridiculous but I was having fun...Yay for liquid courage...hehe



And for the most fun of my night...I shared a cupcake with my friend Mychelle...there a few of those pics I want to share...so I will just tell u that, it was fun and sexy...and I had chocolate frosting spread all over my cleavage...who would like to help me lick that off?

My trip to California...to shot my holiday updates!

I always love leaving for LA...this time I was definitely ready to shoot a few sets and just get out of dodge. By the time it was time for me to leave for the train( I often ride Amtrak to LA because it's relaxing and cheap), I was exhausted. My train was leaving at 1:20 am and well I knew I could sleep. I passed out before the train even pulled out of Tucson. I got into LA about an hour early and luckily I was able to wake up the lovely Shameless Angel to come pick me up. Her and Andy came and got me and we went to breakfast at Burger King. It was short and sweet it was great to get caught up. We went back to their place and chilled, looked at all my different outfits and tried to figure out where we were going to shoot each of the 13 outfits that I brought....fast forward...I only ended up shooting 5 of my outfits...I always have such good intentions.
Shameless Angel and I ended up doing a little chatting or maybe it was more like alot of chatting. I actually really enjoyed it. I felt as though we connected on a level we hadn't really connected on before. It was cool, I was actually bummed to be leaving them so soon...but it was time to go celebrate Ms. Desiree Devine's birthday!
So, Andy and Shameless dropped Desiree and I off at a McDonald's in LA where we met up with the lovely Michelle. We drove to our hotel and all got beautified for our night out at the Butterfly Lounge a BBW club in Costa Mesa. That exciting story and pictures I am going to save for tomorrow.

***I am making a commitment to my blog for the rest of the year...I will be blogging 5 days a week from here on out...that's 25-30 blogs by December 31st. More than I have written all year. You will get to take a walk in the normal day and life of me...the more normal than you would expect Ms. Dawn...oh yeah and for anyone who reads this...if I do not write at least 25 blogs by the 31st of December, I am mailing out an autographed pic to anyone who calls me on it***

What a last few days!

I thought I would pop on and share some of my pictures from Halloween and catch ya up on what's been going on with me. Halloween I went out to a club with friends. It was a good time. For any Batman fans, a group of us did some of the Batman villians. I was Poison Ivy. We also had a Joker, Harlequin and Catwoman. My bartender made me a martini that was bubbling and smoking. It was amazing! Very festive! All in all it was a good night!

Dawn vs the Ocean

I had one helluva of a time in Mexico...I have been dying to write about this experience I had while I was there...It was me versus the ocean...and I'm a big girl but not quite as big as the ocean so you can probably guess who won this fight...

When I first got on the beach I pretty much just sat in the surf let the water come up on me...it's was wonderful...the water was warm...it was so peaceful...I was scared as hell of jellyfish as I had seen so many of them when the tide was out...but what the hell I sat there and daydreamed about all different kinds of things...even my prince charming...whereever he may be...enough sitting I am ready to get in the ocean...

I felt like I could handle it...although I'd seen plenty get taken down by those waves...I would not be one of them...it was a family vacation so my mom and dad were down on the beach with me...along with my sister and her boyfriend...I stood in the ocean but I was not going too far in cause I am a bit of a chicken no matter how ballsy I was feeling...so I go a little further in and my back is to the ocean at this point when it throws its first punch...it wasn't a total knockout but I did go down....so here I am in the ocean on my knees and I am trying to get up...just as I have my footing the next punch comes...back down I went...then the ocean kept punching me with waves...water over my head but I am a fighter...I am doing my best to get back up when suddenly the water pushes one of my breasts out of my suit...remember the part where I said my dad and my sister's boyfriend are at the water with me...they are playing baseball in the sand about 10 feet away and I just know they probably saw so my main course of action at this point is not getting out of the water but trying to put my damn boob back in my suit...so now I am no longer holding on the the sand...I am trying my best to grab a hold of myself when a wave bigger then any of the others, hits me with a BAM! Now I am flipped over on my ass and my boob is out being smacked around by the water and I am drinking so much saltwater...my mom is trying to help me...bless her little 130lb self... and she says your boob your boob...and I'm like FUCK it...I want to get the hell out of here...as another wave comes up over my head...I manage to put my boob back in my suit and flip over on to my knees and scream for my dad to help me...he came over and helped me up and said "oh I didn't realize you were having a problem" which I think translated to, "I looked over and saw your boob getting splashed around the water and well I just pretended not to so you wouldn't be so embarassed" I could see it in his face...LOL...

Needless to say I didn't go back in the ocean the rest of my trip...I just sat in the low surf and enjoyed in from the sand...the ocean definitely won that one...

This is not a blue condom it is one of the many jellyfish I saw.