Monday, December 14, 2009

The holidays are here...

I love the holidays...I especially like getting all dressed up in my santa outfits and taking pictures. It's one of my favorite things to shoot. I took three different sets this year so you will get to see alot of holiday goodness. Here is the first preview. I loved this outfit...although it barely contained my boobs...I guess I shouldn't be surprised...they seem to be getting bigger and bigger. I can't wait to do my measuring set in January so I can compare. To see more CLICK HERE.

Celibacy? Drum roll please...........

What's going on with the celibacy thing?....drum roll has come to an end...or had come to an end. I am back in the same place although not by choice.

I made it to 14 months...yep and you all know I was holding out for someone wonderful. Did that happen? It did momentarily. He was everything I needed at the time. Unfortunately, things didn't work out...but we won't dwell on the negative, instead let me tell you that the sex was off the hook. It's funny you sometimes forget what you are missing out on when you've gone so long without something...I was so missing out. But, it was different this wasn't some random mean nothing was someone who captured my mind first and then my heart.

I have to tell you though that the first time was hard...I was drinking a little and we were in the hot tub. I knew I wanted to do it...but I had placed such a big expectation on myself to not have sex that when I did...I felt horrible. The sex part was great but the emotions that went along with it were fucking insane. I felt guilty...I felt like I had let myself down...I even cried right there in the hot tub. It was crazy...I wanted it...I cared about this person but it really messed with me for a few minutes. I got over it quickly needless to say.

I am no longer on a quest for celibacy...but I have to tell you that I am going to continue to hold out for that special someone. I deserve it...although I have to tell you tonight I could really go for some forceful, hard, hot sex....yes right about now that sounds like exactly what the doctor ordered. Call me Dr. D.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Newest updates to the site!

Hey everyone! I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday! I spent time with my family...which is my favorite thing to do. I also went and finally saw the movie New Moon. Yes I am one of those Twilight geeks. I can't help it...I love me some vegetarian!

Well, here is my newest set to the site...the outfit is like a little fishnet was nice and tight...I hope you like.
I have also had a couple videos go up in the pool naked...watching my body in motion. It's a pretty cool video. You should check them out!

And finally I made some brownies...they are my favorite! This is a fun one to check out...I made them in my panties :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Where in the world is Ms Dawn P?

I am sorry that I have been absent from the net as of late. I can't tell you how many times I have tried to sit down and write this very blog. I have had a pretty tragic thing happen to me and I have had some dealing that I have had to do. I kind of checked out of this part of my life for awhile. I apologize I have not been around...I am coming back slowly but surely. I have lots to share with you all. I have more stories then I can even imagine finding the time to write about, with work and all. But, I will and I promise there is some spicy things to tell you about too. I know there are some folks out there who are curious about the celibacy thing...that will definitely be a whole blog in and of itself. I am going to go answer some emails and I will be writing more later this evening. Lots of hugs and kisses to all of you! Thanks for being understanding.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Go Yankees! Baseball update!

The Yankees have their 3rd game far in the series they are 2-0...I know I don't have anything to do with that...but I am so rooting them on! In this set you see me in my Jeter jersey. I am all Yankees fan! See me in and out of my jersey...and also see the fun on video...swingin a bat with these very large breasts in the way. CLICK HERE to check it out!

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

All this and free picture galleries too!

My newest update is one of my new many times do you hear me say that? I can't help it...I just love the dress I am wearing in this update. I might just make it the dress I wear out on New Years Eve...what do you think? Could I get away with it?
My webmistress Lynda Ray has also put together a few galleries I thought I would share...also you can keep up with what's going on at the other Hard Ten websites by following HER BLOG. The two galleries happen to also be from two of my favorite I know I know!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

What's going on over at!

I have some great new sets up right now. Things are starting to get back on latest set turned out to be such a hot one! It really showcases all my big assets...My 3 B's Boobs, Belly and Booty! I started in some men's pajamas and stripped down to absolutely nothing...yes you heard correctly...the set ends with me in all my nakedness. You definitely need to come see this CLICK HERE!

Monday, September 14, 2009

I'm so sorry...

But, I am going to have to cancel my webcam show for the next 2 weeks...I lost one of the most important people in my life this weekend and I need a little time to sort through this. I promise everything will be back up and running soon...I apologize to my members...I hope you understand I need this time.

Thank you,

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Come celebrate my 2 year anniversary!

I can't believe it's been two years since my site has been up! It's been a wonderful two years! Thanks for all the support you have given me! It's been such a pleasure to share myself with all of you. In this set...I celebrated with some cupcakes! I love cupcakes...see more @

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Sexy in the Pool!

My newest update is a good one! It's from a set that I shot last week! You are gonna love it! I took pics in and out of the's amazing to me how my boobs just float so nicely in water. I wouldn't even need a bra if I could just be a mermaid. LOL ! I know I'm a dork! Anyway here are some pics...I hope you enjoy! There are way more to see @

Monday, August 24, 2009

My long lost's baaaaaaaack!

I had one hell of a weekend as far as being by myself went. I could not wait to just be able to spend sometime with me...and my new favorite sex toy! I have recently discovered this vibrator stuck in the back of my drawer, it was there for way too long. The picture shows it all...but mine is a clear purple...same controls are a little different...but all in all it's what I had shoved inside me multiple times on Saturday. For quite sometime I have been using a little magic bullet...I put it on my with my nipples...have an orgasm...and roll over and go to sleep. Ahhhhh but not this weekend. I was on a mission. How many orgasms can I have?

I put on a little lesbian porn...yep porn...I love it...although I am really only a fan of girl on girl action. It's funny the lesbian porn gets me worked up...but the thoughts in my head definitely weren't about another female. I imagined sitting on a nice hard cock...riding it slowly at first and then faster and faster. My first orgasm was amazing...I laid there thinking about the fact...that 2 orgasms in a row would be really great...but seemed impossible. I continued to watch the movie...and actually was discussing my amazing orgasm with a male friend of mine via text. My mind started racing again...I slid my vibrator back inside my still very wet pussy. It felt so would definitely take me a little time but I was going to have another one...I was going to make sure. The great thing about my long lost vibrator is it has two functions...the part of the vibrator that goes inside me, it goes around in little circles and the pearls massage the inside of the pussy...and little nub on the outside does a fine job of giving my clit maximum stimulation.

As I fucked myself I started thinking about something that I have never done. I have never sat on a man's face. I have hang ups but don't we all...but I imagined how great the control would be. My wet hot pussy grinding on his face. Mmmm his tongue deep inside me. I thought about him sucking on my clit...I had another orgasm...the 2nd one bigger than the first. I laid there in the aftermath of my thunderous orgasm amazed that a toy and some imagination could rock my body that hard. Thank goodness it was only the afternoon...I wasn't done yet. Although, I did take a break.

I picked back up before I went out to the club that night...I was already dressed to pussy was aching for a little more attention. I hiked up my skirt and slid my panties to the slide. I rubbed my vibe on my clit...I was already ready to go...I slid my vibrator as deep inside me as it would go...I turned it on...and quickly got myself off. When I finished I adjusted my panties...and all night my wet panties reminded me about the three orgasms I had that time I'm all alone...I am going to go for five.

Friday, August 21, 2009

What a busy busy week!

My photographer who happens to be the lovely Shameless Angel and my videographer came out to Tucson for 4 days. We had alot of content to shoot! I have never shot so much content at one felt great when I was all done. It is always great having Samantha and Andy here...I love hanging out and catching up with them.

There are going to be some amazing videos going up on my site over the next few months. I did a fun boob crushing video, I promise it will be interesting and really a good laugh. I did some videos in the pool, I can't wait for you to see...I even got the nerve to jump off the diving board...not only that but I was naked doing it!

There are some great picture sets coming as well...I will put up a couple pictures so you can see what you can expect over the next couple months. Click here see me in all my glory!

New features!

My new site went up this week! It is so amazing...I am in love! Yes I can fall in love with my own was a long time coming. I loved the old one so much that I wasn't sure I would ever be able to change it. But, my webmistress really out did herself. Plus, I had some new features I was adding so it was definitely time.

One of the new exciting features on my site is the Erotic Bed Time Stories by me. :) I bought my own little camera and I read my favorite stories to you! This section of my site will update weekly to start out that means 3 updates a week! One erotic picture set and also a regular video. My first story is about some hot lesbian action! I have a fascination with lesbian porn...this new feature is going to help my members learn alot more about me.

Also, starting very webcam shows will be playing in the website itself. No more longing on to yahoo to see will be able to open my site and watch right there. We are still working out the kinks on this I am thinking should be working within 2 weeks.

So, make sure you come see the new design! It's beautiful and it has 2 new videos for you to enjoy! Thanks for your support! XoxoX

Sunday, August 16, 2009

More updates!

You can come see these two new updates @

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I'm not so Little Red Riding Hood!

& I am looking for my big bad wolf! The newest update that went up this week is in this cute little red hoody...I had lots of fun in this outfit...hugs the booty well. Doesn't do such a good job of containing my boobs but hey why hide them! Plus lots of pictures in this update of my big thighs. You can see more @

Thursday, July 30, 2009

I shoot when I was in Vegas.

And as usual I think I am going to shoot so many more sets than I end up with. It was hard to pull myself away from friends and the work. Not to mention when I get around Andy and Samantha we have so much to catch up we talk and talk....and work just a little. Both updates I am wearing barely anything...I love teeny tiny outfits...that barely cover my tits. These ones are no exception...wait until you see the pics...I am positive they are getting bigger! I've added a few pics here...there's way more where those came from @

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Newest video updates!

The first update I'm going to talk about is the water balloon's officially my very favorite update...while it's cute and is alot of fun and actually quite a laugh! I decided it would be fun to bring really big water balloons...I sat on a few and also popped a few on my little white tank top! It's a must see! @
The next video that went up...was from a windy day and I was playing with some windmills. I was having a great time trying to make them both can see me in just my panties...enjoying the outdoors.
And the last video that went up was me on a of those exercise machines! I thought I would be able to do it for 5 minutes at the very least...hahaha not so much! My thighs rubbing together was causing some serious heat! Come see me move @

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Guess who went to the Red Rooster!?

What is the Red Rooster?

The Red Rooster is Las Vegas's oldest and most well known Swing Party for couples and singles. You can check more about the club at their website

On the first Saturday I was in Vegas which was 2 days before I celebrated my one year of celibacy...I thought why not make this last couple days as hard as possible...hahahaha so I went with a big group of people to the Rooster. I have never been to a swing club before but, I thought if for no other reason this could make for some good writing. If you have not had the opportunity to go to a club like this...well you should try it. I had a wonderful time. The coolest thing about the club is it's just like going to a regular club...there's a dj/entertainer who looks like Wayne Newton...a dance floor...tables...a little bar area(which you bring your own bottle of liquor and they mix your drinks for you)...there were snacks...a pool and hot tub...and lastly the thing that made it a little different than most clubs there were bedrooms with a 20 minute time limit. I mean who hasn't been out to a club and wished you didn't have to wait until you get home to get your hands on your significant other or someone you just met but both of you are there for the same reason.

It started like any other club night...more people I knew came...we all sat and shot the shit...and then one of the girls said, "Let me give you a tour" at first I was like no...I would have been happy just staying at the table for the whole night. But, after a few pleas I said what the hell...and off we went. First she took me to a room off the sitting had a pool table and there were people hanging out in there in their lingerie. The dress code is pretty laid back...women can be naked and men have to cover their junk. Yes naked ladies! Good stuff! Then we got to the locker area...u can use the lockers when u go swimming...and right on the other side of the lockers is the first group of rooms with the "20 minute time limit" posted on the door. How fun would that be!?
Pool area
Next she showed me the pool area and to my surprise there was a woman in her 50's standing against the wall with one of her tits out of her shirt...I wasn't sure what that was all about but it was funny...I smiled and said hello...and giggled uncontrollably inside. Maybe that was a way to get let people know she had something she was willing to share. Whatever it was I can tell you I am 99% sure homegirl got lucky that night. And last but certainly not least was the Orgy Room! Tell me this place doesn't look like a fuckin' good time! It was empty when I took the tour...but I knew I would be back. I am one voyeuristic chick!Orgy Room
So, as the night went on and more alcoholic beverages were consumed...I got dragged into a 20 minute I was going as a security blanket for a in this little room there were 3 men and 3 women...I was not participating so we will say 2 women. I watched some of the hottest sex I had ever seen...the actual couple in the room...would switch off between the husband and then the stud that his wife had picked...each would fuck her in different positions...I was watching my own personal porno (although truth be told if it was my porno I would have been watching 5 women...but alas this was good stuff). And then I sort of joined in...I kissed my girlfriend while she was getting railed by the hunk of a man she has choosen. Yep...that was the extent of my swinging...kissing girls...which I love to do. It's so sensual to have a woman's lips on yours. Soft wet and sometimes urgent kisses. It was time for me to join the party back to the sitting area I went. The place was getting pretty crowded...and I ran into a good looking couple who asked if I would like to join them...I told them I would be interested in watching and maybe kissing the girl but had no interest in the dude. So, they said they would come find me when it was their turn for a now the wait was up to 30 minutes or so. In the meantime I found myself in a room with a table I can only describe as a pussy eating table. I was in there with 2 girls and a guy...had my prayers been answered was I gonna get to see my own personal porno? A little hot lesbian action...well sadly the answer is no...but I really wanted to try out that table...I may have been persuaded but there was a knock at the door and the couple that I had agreed to watch was ready for I slipped out the of the room and moved my way into the other room. I joined the couple and she was bent over the dresser and he was slowly...very slowly hitting it from behind. Now I only wish you guys could see me imitate the way he was fucking her...because I did a very good rendition of it. I was standing across the room watching...drinking my drink...I wanted to tell him to speed it was killing me. I didn't know I was going to watch him make sweet love to his girlfriend...I certainly didn't sign up for that. I excused myself to use the bathroom and let them know if I didn't make it back...just to keep doing their thing. Guess who never made it back? Yep that would be yours truly.

So, I am glad i don't live in Vegas because I would definitely have a new hang out. I would be a Rooster regular...I didn't get laid but I wasn't looking to...actually come to think about it...someone asked me if I would like to fuck. I politely declined...after all my one year anniversary was 2 days away. Being at a swing club really made me question what I am looking for in a relationship...I never thought that I would even want to be in the life style...but I have had the honor of knowing some really amazing loving couples who do it. I think their relationships seem more solid than some of my non-swinging friends. It's something else to think about on my search for my other half.

Mission Accomplished!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, on July 13th @ midnight I celebrated one year of celibacy.

1. abstention from sexual relations.
2. abstention by vow from marriage: the celibacy of priests.
3. the state of being unmarried.

Abstention from sexual relations...everyone wants to know why...well I thought I would take the celebration of my one year of celibacy to really explain...just who I am and why this has become so important to me. This year of no sex didn't start out as a vow of celibacy...I was just a woman tired of being used by men. I hated waking up the day after having sex with some guy and feeling bad about myself. Beating myself up because deep inside I knew I didn't want to do it...but I just couldn't say no. The last few times I had sex were just that...I actually had an experience where I told the guy no, over and over again...and he fucking whined like a little bitch until I just said, "Fine just do it!" Who would really be interested in having sex with someone who didn't want to have it with them? So, he did his thing...and I just laid there...I was his real life blow up doll...I did not participate at all. I was disgusted...I felt so violated. I couldn't wait to get the fuck out of there. (the reason I didn't leave sooner is I was drunk and could not drive). And then my last experience was better but much of the same...I really did want to do it...but it just was painful and I wasn't "ready". I woke up the next morning and got the fuck outta there...and then I beat myself up.

Now, don't get me wrong I don't believe you have to be in a committed relationship to have good sex...but I have done all the bullshit and really...the best sex I have had(and I have had some amazing sex) I at least had a form of a relationship with the guy. Maybe not a committed one but there was an established friendship or some sort of level of trust. So, I made it to a year and then I had a week left in Vegas to do what I thought was going to end up being some crazy sex. But, I thought about it and this celibacy thing feels pretty good...I haven't felt bad the next day in over a year. I haven't felt pressured...I really like where I am in this venture. I think I am going to wait for someone's my time. If you are out there...I am waiting for you.

Now...after you read my next blog you aren't going to believe I am still on my quest...I saw some wild shit in Vegas...I mean stuff you don't see in just a normal day. I went out the the World Famous Red Rooster...yes I have some crazy stories...stay tuned.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I need a good spanking!

And this is just the outfit I should be wearing when I get it! In my previous blog you got to read about my liking for a good, hard spank...well I know it would hurt so much more if I was wearing this sexy little fishnet outfit. My ass is exposed in all it's glory...ok who has a nice strong hand to beat this booty? See more @

What is it about a good spanking?

So, I decided after looking over my new update that I should talk about my intense like for a good spanking. I don't mean a silly little slap on the ass...I mean...the bring tears to my eyes type of spanking. I am not really sure if it turns me on...I actually don't think it's that at all(I'll get into this more later in the blog) . I love my birthday because at this point I am guaranteed at least 35 spankings...I like a good solid hand and also like to be spanked with a paddle. I want it to sting! I like public spankings...the more the merrier. Spankings from girls are ok...but there is nothing like a man behind me...focused on my huge it to me hard enough to make my knees buckle. That does not happen often(the knee buckling thing). You would be surprised just how strong of a hit this ass can take. I had a friend once...oh the pain he could inflict on this ass.

Why I don't think it turns me on...I was at a little Sybian party once...and I am quite a modest girl...I am the girl on the Sybian with her panties on...I don't enjoy penetration on this machine...I just like the clit stimulator. I just like to grind on it, it's a guaranteed orgasm or two or three...anyway back to the spanking thing. There was a chick there who was a domme and she had a crop and she was whooping my ass while I rode the machine. She hit hard...real hard...and I could not get off...actually I wasn't enjoying the Sybian at all. And let me tell you how much I love this is such a wonderful about an incredibly intense orgasm...mmmmmmmmmm ok...sorry I was lost in my own little fantasy for a minute. Anyway...the spanking thing totally turned me off...maybe it was it because it was a chick...who really knows...I guess I will have to try it again. I am pretty sure I would like a nice spank from a dude who was hitting it from behind.

The more I am thinking about a good spanking the more I could use one. My birthday is damn near a year away...maybe I could make a certain day of each month National Spanking Day for that month...then I would at least get it good once a month. Yes I know...the 2nd Saturday of each month could be Spank Dawn Saturday....which means...this Saturday when I'm in will be time. But, then I guess I would need to find some volunteers who would be willing to open up a can of whoop ass on my ass. A girl can dream right...

Thursday, July 2, 2009

More Arizona Sunshine!

In case you didn't new favorite place to shoot my pictures is in the great outdoors. Nothing is more exciting than possibly getting caught showing my business. So, as I took these pictures I could hear people talking and cars driving near...and I had to stop a few times because even though the thought of getting caught is exciting...I am still scared as hell to actually get caught. lol I know I'm a dork.
I put on my very short little black skirt...and my very tight yellow Cali shirt and off to the desert we went. I know everyone doesn't know this about me but I am actually a California girl! I was born in Orange County but left So Cal when I was about 5 and moved to Germany. I lived in Germany for 4 years and then we moved to Montana...spent about 4 or 5 years in Montana...and then I came to Arizona...which is where I call home since I have lived here the longest...over 20 years.
You can check it out @!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Did a fun interview!

I did an interview with Senor Carlos...he asked alot of great questions! You can check it out HERE

Or the url if you want it

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Pondering thoughts of my "mission"

So, those of you that read this blog know that I have not had sex for almost one that anniversary fast approaches...I start to long can a woman actually hold out? In 18 days I will have gone a full year without the touch of a man. Who am I kidding? I mean yes it became a fun thing to do after I had held out for so long...because eventually not having it ,turned into not wanting it quite so much...and that is when the "mission" was born. But, I sit here thinking about the point of this mission...what it turned into for me. Yes I would love nothing more than to find something more meaningful than a roll in the hay...but I think about how long it's actually been since I had something more meaningful than that...and I'm not going to abstain from sex for umpteen years! And with that I am contemplating how I plan on spending this one year anniversary of not having sex...will I continue down this path of resistance....or do I celebrate riding a nice hard cock? I know right now the latter of the two sounds sooooooo much better.

July 13th is the big day...funny when I typed out that date I realized that was the month and day that I lost my virginity. Of course that was much earlier in my was a Friday the 13th actually and it was close to 20 years ago. At the time it felt like a Friday the 13th...not a pleasant experience...but alas...the same day as my anniversary falls on. I will be in Vegas on the anniversary of this abstinence...I will be drinking to my sex life's non-eventful year. I will be partying with good friends...and who knows what will will be interesting to write this blog after I get back from 10 days in Vegas. Can I withstand? Will I even want to? It's going to be tough...but I am going to give myself a break...if I decide to spend sometime with a lucky guy and we get lucky...I won't beat myself up because of this damn "mission". And maybe if it comes down to it...I will realize how liberating this mission has been for me, and tell my hormones that they need to chill. Maybe I can hold off...we will see I suppose.

So shiny and so slippery!

My newest video update is a hot and sexy one! Me and baby oil...lots of baby oil. Watch as I rub it all over my big boobs and big's felt good to be covered in baby oil...maybe next time you could help me rub it all over! Come see more @

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Red and black and oh so sexy!

This set was alot of fun...I purchased this little outfit from the internet and was surprised how little it covered when I put it on. All the better I say! I felt so sexy in this little skirt and showcases my boobies and booty so well! I am sorry I couldn't write more...just wanted to drop in real quick...back to grandmother's house I go!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Just a quick hello!

I stopped home real quick after going to visit my dad today, actually I left my gramma there and said I needed to come pick something up at my house. It has been a rough few days. I don't know if my gramma's pain is worse on me or her. But, I can tell you that even if it's only for 10 minutes it's nice to be home all alone.

The BBW Vegas Bash is coming in 3 weeks...I am so excited! I don't have all the outfits I need. But, hell some say I could even look good in a trash bag...that would be an interesting set! LOL...I can't wait to see some of you there. Make sure to come say hi and I will do the same! I am going to try and keep up with my blog while I'm there...someone will have a laptop I can use...I hope.

Well, this was just a quick hello...I am off back to my mom and dad's! Happy Father's Day to all the dads and single moms out there doing the job of both! Much Love!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I will be away for a couple weeks...

I have choosen to go and stay at my gramma's house to take care of her for the next 2 weeks. Unfortunately, I will be unable to do much on the internet for those 2 weeks. I don't have a lap top and I am not sure I could pick up a wireless signal out there...or I would just bring my desktop. My main priority is getting my gramma better and so that's what I am going to do. I will try to stop at some point and update all of you on what's going on with the website and in my world. I hope you all have a wonderful 2 weeks and look forward to jumping back on line in a couple weeks.


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Squeezed into a tini nightie

Finding cute little outfits that fit my boobs isn't the easiest task. Most of the time...I see something I think is cute but it only has a D cup for the top...well this new update is one of those many outfits I often come across. And since I really only have to wear it for 15 minutes...I figure what the hell.

I loved the outfit...pretty little g-string with a bow. I think that's about the only part of my panties you can see. My ass swallows them. There are alot of different poses with this set. Come see more HERE