Thursday, June 25, 2009

Pondering thoughts of my "mission"

So, those of you that read this blog know that I have not had sex for almost one year...as that anniversary fast approaches...I start to wonder...how long can a woman actually hold out? In 18 days I will have gone a full year without the touch of a man. Who am I kidding? I mean yes it became a fun thing to do after I had held out for so long...because eventually not having it ,turned into not wanting it quite so much...and that is when the "mission" was born. But, I sit here thinking about the point of this mission...what it turned into for me. Yes I would love nothing more than to find something more meaningful than a roll in the hay...but I think about how long it's actually been since I had something more meaningful than that...and I'm not going to abstain from sex for umpteen years! And with that I am contemplating how I plan on spending this one year anniversary of not having sex...will I continue down this path of resistance....or do I celebrate riding a nice hard cock? I know right now the latter of the two sounds sooooooo much better.

July 13th is the big day...funny when I typed out that date I realized that was the month and day that I lost my virginity. Of course that was much earlier in my life...it was a Friday the 13th actually and it was close to 20 years ago. At the time it felt like a Friday the 13th...not a pleasant experience...but alas...the same day as my anniversary falls on. I will be in Vegas on the anniversary of this abstinence...I will be drinking to my sex life's non-eventful year. I will be partying with good friends...and who knows what will happen...it will be interesting to write this blog after I get back from 10 days in Vegas. Can I withstand? Will I even want to? It's going to be tough...but I am going to give myself a break...if I decide to spend sometime with a lucky guy and we get lucky...I won't beat myself up because of this damn "mission". And maybe if it comes down to it...I will realize how liberating this mission has been for me, and tell my hormones that they need to chill. Maybe I can hold off...we will see I suppose.

12 comments:

Dr AssBe Bigger said...

Sweetie. I know how you feel. Like I said its been over 4 months for me. The problem is I do not want to turn mine into a "what would it feel like" type of game. My horniness is really driving me crazy and eventually will cause me to take desperate measures. I hope that two things will happen for me. 1 my baby comes home soon or 2 that I luck up and get that special booty call.

7 Bates said...

[...scrambling to book hotel in Vegas]

Anonymous said...

Sex has a lot of health benfits though..I think we modern westerners make a sex a negative thing and that abstaining allows us to...I dont know, 'rise above'...I think sex, like anything else, can be bad for those that cant handle it or 'manage' it in their lives...Sexual energy can be empowering and liberating in its own right....

-OthelloXXXX

Lohn said...

I feel people put too much importance on sex. it seems like no one courts or dates anymore. Because of this we have a lot of broken marriages and dead beat parents. I think sex should be a regular part of everyones life. However, it should be part of a serious meaningful relationship. I feel it makes the experience so much better. When you can bond with someone on a physical,emotional,mental, and spiritual level.

Buck Kelly said...
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Buck Kelly said...

I will cue the music and turn the lights on high - wish I was there to help break the silence of your first orgasm by man in a year - love you long time - nice to have choices in life - always nice to do what u want - xoxoxoxoxoxo

Lynchie said...

Stay strong... Wait till you can find someone who isn't in it just to play with you or get some.. you can do it. Remember it is yours for the giving... make it count and with someone who will truly appreciate it.

Lynchie said...

Man created plastic toys.. use em well sweetie

twisttwistytwist said...
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twisttwistytwist said...

Well, there's precious little point denying yourself something for the sake of denying it forever... you have to, sometimes, follow what your body is telling you to desire. But yeah... I can fully sympathise with the need for someone special to share it with. Hmm, so it's a tricky dilemma... love or lust, which will prevail?

TWiST XxX

Ariel Carter said...

Now Dawn baby you know i have told you plenty of times that if you really wanted to, you can just drop me a line or something and i'll be right there to fulfill your very fantasy as well as break your streak. It really does suck that won't be able to get to the bash this year, but hopefully i'll make it next year, but either way just hit me up and we can see about it ok lovely?

E.I.H. said...

I'm curious if your no sex for a year mission, means you haven't dated for almost a year as well.